Childhood Dream.....
Ever since I was a child I wanted my own Castle and with that my own Kingdom. I would rule over the land and would be a just and righteous King. I must admit I still wouldn't mind this and still I am in search of my castle...... yet in some ways I have a castle and that kingdom ( just not a crown :( ...... )Castles were , to me. places of safety, class, honor, power and money. They kept out what they didn't want in with high walls, moats, draw bridges, etc..... I have done that with myself. I am my own castle. I don't let people in easily, if at all,,, and when they are in the walls are still so high and so think that they can't get in even if they tried. Even for myself it is hard to get in. I will push aside what I feel and will wait to deal with it some day. I know this is not a great way of doing things and " Living the Life"... It is a reality that I try and face and deal with from time to time.
My kingdom is just about the same. It's my own world that I run to when things are not going as I wanted or that I planned. In that world I feel safe but at the same time it is a lonely place. my castle is in that kingdom that I control and rule. I find that I am not that King I wanted to be. The King, me, is hard on his kingdom, puts demands that can't be meet yet, is harsh, etc... Not a fair ruler at all.... And the Key is I shouldn't be the "King" or the "Ruler"... those are not to be my titles or place in either Kingdom...
There is only one true "King" and that is Jesus and one "Ruler" and that is God. Maybe if I stop trying to keep the crown and humble myself I will learn this. They know what I really need and knows what is best. I think many of us may feel the same. If we let Jesus and God rule over us and I speak so much for myself as well, we would be better off. The burden of running that kingdom of our own is taken from us.. There is only one kingdom we need to be part of and that is the Kingdom of God. That is what I need to focus on and not my own Kingdom. I think if we all did that it would be an easier life to live.....
What do you think?
The man who says he will lead a newer and better life tomorrow, who promises great things for the future, and yet does nothing in the present to make that future possible,
posted by Jim | Thursday, October 26, 2006
2 Comments:
I agree with everything you say here, so don't have much more to add. I do have a question though--it's actually something I think about quite often.
HOW do we stop trying to be the ruler of the kingdom? How do we allow ourselves to be a member of the kingdom and just realize once and for all there is only one King and we are NOT Him?
If I had those answers Lori, I would write a book, seel it and buy my castle. :) LOL Just kidding... It comes in time I hope as we give more and more become less and less. When we wait for answers instead of pushing Him out of our way to get in front of Him to lead... I hope it comes in time but I think first we have to really want it... not just say it but really want it..
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